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To my dearest

2012-02-13T22:04:00.001-08:00

Today is a special day, a day where almost everyone around the world celebrates with their love ones. To be honest I wasn't looking forward to Valentine's day because to me everyday IS valentine's day. The day doesn't matter, what matter most is the company.

To me you're the most amazing person I've met. You always said that you're none that I said you are but truth is you're my kind of prefect so everything about you to me is prefect. I can never find anything about you that is bad except the fact that you're way too good to me I fell that I don't deserve it.

I love how we always don't have time to meet up and only get to see each other the most 4 times a month but this just shows how strong our relationship are and that makes spending my day staring at you so enjoyable and worth it. Even though it kills me for missing you way too much as I don't get to see you often but the love towards you grown deeper each day and I crave for you more as day passes by.

I like how you always look so great so effortless, even when you are asleep and when you brush your teeth. I like how you have long curly hair now that I can play with when cuddling with you while watching tv. I love the smell on you that even when you sweat you still smell so damn good & I can't help myself, I'll secretly smell you. I hate it when you read a book you get so involved into it that you ignore me all the time when i talk to you but looking at you smiling to yourself just make it hard for me to be mad at you for even a min. I love the way you look at me when you talk to me. I like your voice and I can never get enough of it just like I can never get enough of coffee.

I like how your fingers fit perfectly between mine. I love how when I've stupid ideas you'll always go along with me. I like it when you accompany me to supermarkets to look at food I can't eat. I love who I am when I'm with you and that I love you not because I need you, I need you because I love you.

Without you we will never be able to last this long, I'm looking forward to spend the rest of my life/time I have with you. I love you truly from within my heart cal, happy valentine's day <3

P/s: can't wait to see you later !!!!

2012-01-09T22:46:00.001-08:00

Won't be posting for a long while, need some time out alone. Nobody read this space anyway because I'm too boring.

2012-01-06T07:36:00.001-08:00

I have so much to say but I rather not say anything because I know that it's not going to change anything. I don't even know where to start. Life is good so far so why can't I just enjoy it and stop whining ? Because I am greedy and I hate it.

I know that I'm happy with everything that's going on in my life now but then there's this sour feeling. This awful feeling that's always there, I fight so hard to ignore & to hide it at the back of my mind but it's just too strong.

I don't ask much really, all I want is to be able to enjoy a day with nothing to worry about. Maybe because I'm a worried wart so ya worrying is like my part time job but it's so hard not to worry anything at all. I get nervous and anxious when I'm outside or in the crowd. I feel safe when I'm alone in a room best if it's dark, I think I'm not normal. I need some music, coffee and some eye shut.

Actually I have more packing and mopping to do so ya happy 11:36PM.

Photos from instangram

2012-01-06T07:21:00.001-08:00

Last year was kinda full of shit especially December when my bad luck was on full force. Never failed to knock into something or fall. Now that it's a brand new year I'm really looking forward to it ! I think my bad luck should have run out by now..

As usual work was fun, can't wait to see all the girls again ! Having 4 days off but all this 4 days are packed with things to be done. My sis's 21st birthday celebration tomorrow and we're all packing the house. I hope she's happy and like the iphone4s !

I need to get a organizer soon, oh $$$ please be in my bank soon I have been working so hard I think I deserve you ~

(o^^o)

2011-12-20T10:17:00.001-08:00

Finally another day off from work, feeling really really tired but I still love my job and it's quite obvious haha. So I met my lovely girl today and oh my it's been so long since I saw her, I had fun laughing and chat non stop with her hehe <3

Haven been sleeping well lately and I need to start running as often as I can again!! Heading to the gym later and then make use the rest of my day to clean the house because we might be moving soon so ya..

Meeting my handsome saw on Thursday for our movie date!! Excited because I haven seen him for a month or so if I'm not wrong (ok I felt like it's been years). Ok I need to do some workout before I hit the covers, good night and have a nice day. (can't stop saying 'have a nice day' ever since work started omg)

2011-12-12T07:38:00.001-08:00

Have been working at Forever New for almost a week and I'm having lots of fun even though my legs hurt like crazy with all the standing and walking.

It's a busy month and I'm just going to focus on my work. Have been thinking a lot lately and it's not very healthy for me. The stress and pressure level is increasing and I'm about to burst if this don't stop. Nothing feels right or maybe I'm just too sensitive I don't know. I hate this feeling.

(z_z)

2011-12-05T10:06:00.001-08:00

First day of work later, since it's already 1:55AM now. Feeling nervous because 1) what if I screwed up? 2) what if I look stupid? 3) what if I get lost & worst late??

I know it's going to be hard for me because I am socially awkward and I can't bring myself to start a conversation with people I don't know. I will need like 2 weeks to get used to the new environment and people I think.. Or maybe more time I dk. Everybody seem too nice it's so hard to believe but I shouldn't judge so soon, I just need to get to know them better.

Working at a place filled with beautiful clothes and people will be fun ~

Hello December

2011-11-30T10:55:00.001-08:00

This month I will work hard, I will make full use of the time I have left for year 2011 and not disappoint anyone including myself. I will make sure it's the best month of year 2011 before it end. In this month I shall not regret anything I do, I will accept challenges and not let little things bring me down.

I will follow my plans and live my life to the fullest everyday. I will learn to be more understanding to everyone around me, cherish what I have and be glad that I have it. I will learn to be more independent and do my best to put a smile on my parents' face.

I miss everyone. It's funny how people are so close to me like my sis is sitting just across me, my parents are just next door but I miss them. I miss my boy a lot too and my fav girl and my grandma... I just want to sleep forever.

November is not my month

2011-11-23T06:10:00.001-08:00

It start off quite well but now it's going down hill again. Scaled the whole of my left hand this afternoon by boiling hot water and now it's still kinda red but thankfully the pain is gone for good.

Starting work next Monday, don't know how to feel but hoping my left hand will be better by then. I hope the people at work will be good to me. Doing a 30 days challenge starting tomorrow, a healthy lifestyle and a healthy me. Need to start running again!

Date night with <3

2011-11-17T09:29:00.001-08:00

Today I had tea and some toast and half a poached egg because it tasted weird with the sauce. Then I went on a date with my handsome SKW and he treated me to a movie ^^

It was a great show even though with all the gore scenes, I can't describe how happy I am to be able to see my boy. I miss him already but I know good things are worth waiting for! Photos from my phone are not in order.

13 things about me

2011-11-14T03:06:00.001-08:00

1. I love drinking my coffee boiling hot.
2. I like to feel & smell a book before reading it. (especially old ones)
3. I love the sound of silent, it calms me down.
4. I am in love with old films and songs.
5. I can no longer fall asleep before 4AM.
6. I like making breakfast for my family but hate cooking dinner.
7. I am awkward when around people.
8. If I crave for a certain food, I eat that certain food until I'm sick of it.
9. I am in a mess.
10. I like odd numbers.
11. I find it hard to start a conversation with people I'm not close to.
12. I have issues with myself.
13. Most of the time I wish I could just sleep forever because that's the only thing I'm good at that won't hurt or disappoint anyone.

Iphone4 photos

2011-11-11T00:20:00.001-08:00

Photos not in order ~

I am finally updating

2011-11-10T23:55:00.001-08:00

Sorry for the lack of update, haven have time to do so. Went for a job interview yesterday and it was really awesome which I really hope I'll get hire! Ok photos will do the taking ~

March genting trip (overdue)

2011-09-01T01:18:00.000-07:00

I want to go on a holiday with my family again, this time not with my dad's friends but just us.

I thought i won't be enjoying at all but now i really miss that few days at Malaysia, i love my family a lot i wish i can do more to help. I feel useless.

Good bye August

2011-08-31T11:00:00.000-07:00

New

2011-08-31T00:46:00.000-07:00

Hi people i've decided to move over to blogger instead and i'm going to stay here for good. Lj have been acting like an ass and i can't seems to blog in peace so ya here i am! Aug have been a roller coaster ride for me, it's just a really bad month and i'm so glad it's coming to an end.

A new start for a new month, i'm looking forward to Sept and i really wish that it will be better to me this time round. Staying at home everyday is making me go crazy even though it's really nice to have time for myself, got to really get a job soon. Will update again soon, till then ~

p/s: I miss my boy ):